Today is a usual Thursday, (its Thurs. isn't it?) relaxing, looking after baby etc. Not much new news to report - although I seem to keep up on the news a little too much. I grow tired of hearing every single gruesome, bothersome, horrible news story that could possibly be reported on. Anyhow, I need to read some upbeat news instead.

Last week, I found a few nostalgic items from Brian and I's courtship. I read over them a giggled at how much thought and effort (because I remember) I put into the little notes, cards, gifts and generally any correspondence we had. I can recall reading an email from him late at night, then getting up the next morning, running on the treadmill and deciding in so many words how I would respond that day. Even crafting these emails was laborious because I didn't want to appear to forward, or too shy, too neurotic, or needy. He was the first guy I loved, (after the regulation 3 months time) so I often racked my brain way too much over the relationship. He even told me once in an email to relax and not worry about us. As I look back - it was great times, but in hindsight I wish I would have taken his advice more to heart and not barraged myself with 20 questions about our relationship and my 'role' in it. Often when you overanalyze something really wonderful - you can literally overanalyze it to death. All that said, I honestly had a great time dating --some of the best one can have with a true gentleman. My only wish is that I had kept a few more things from that time, but thankfully email is around so we can have that record of our time forever.